haiz...damn that bloody dog,becos of that dog adillah beg kena bite and the saliva was all over..its like omg sia..well i dont blame the dog but the owner hu is like very stupid HARBAN TAIK...ade tali tak nak pakai abih kerja macam super model..so ya...i have left with no choice but to SERTU my hand with tanah,of cos i ask help fom my closest cousin.haha..haiz..hahah..ok da tu aje nak di sampai kan...

for this want,i would like to THANK YOU ALLAH for all the rezeki,wealth, health,happy family,frens,new frens especially FIRDAUS we call him mawi,MY brothers(kai,yan,anwar and Q),my gf adillah,my life,LOVE,new life,new skool and of course for granting me to promote from NT to NA of cos partly becos i usaha,but the rest is allah's move ...i know and realised that without allah's help,i wont get all this above.we only plan for sumthing but only allah decides everythinh on what is good for us..masyallah..allhamdulillah...
besides that i will try my best to avoid from all the wrong doings and things that hated by HIM and of cos to have a last long relationship with her,i really love adillah very much,though i noe NO ONES NOES WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS.kalau ade jodoh ade,kalau takde then i cant do anything,for now i would like to cheerish every moment with her and of cos without the help of allah,i can never achieve that..so ya allah save our realtionship and only u can save it and protects my relationship..amin...so ya,i will pray and ask for everything and especially taubat...i also realised that the world is gettting hectic and hectic,is the world coming to the end?the answer is yes but when hmm...only allah noes it best as he is almighty...

once again i would like thanks allah for everything that i have and for hu i am now..amin...

i really miss u,since u cancel our planned on saturday,all i can do is to miss u more..

firstly im i would like to say sorry to my lover,NURADILLAH BINTE ROSLI,i say this becos,im sorry if u think that i make u as 2nd priority,which im not,im really sorry if u think that im forcing to be with u,which is absolutely wrong,i love u sey ad,its just that da lama siak tak jumpa dorang,then today,my mum told me that she tak need me,so ya i kluar,yes i say that kalau my mum tak need me i go home pasir ris,but tak semesti apa yg i planned jadi pe...ad,im really sorry,if u thnk that im a liar to u,im sorry,im not a liar....so ya ad,im sorry,if u wana hate me,u may do so...but no matter what it is,i love u very2 much...and i really miss u very much....

rite,today was a very boring day for me,like ya,sit at home nothing to do.STUDY3 and more study..otak pon naik pecah..i have been waking up late since bbq,tdo kul 3 pagi bangon 2 ptg..mak i buruk siak..shiisssh,cannot siak like this,canoot continue,mati ah like mati mati...canot2..haha...as usaual bangon pagi wash face mandi then makan then open book online nak main ps2 pon malas da out of game,sumone pplz ajak me kluar,haiz..eh wait,takde duit so ya dont bother to go out..ade duit lain ah..then can kluar..so ya...sit at home like an idiot,ade gf pon takkan nak msg hari2 siak..ok la msg tu memang takan kena banyak2 kan..sikit2 da..nanti bill belambong susah..baik bleh pakai hp teros tak leh pakai hp..haha

so that evening,my cousin dtg nak pakai computer,rite me don mine him using so ya,but then he go play songs like memekak,u noe,like metalcore,screamo and yada2..very noisy song..haha..but then he also let me watch this video pat youtube,very the motherfucking gore shit..like omg oma,got this orang gila,kidnaped one hot chick and kill very brutally..hha..he uses PLIERS to korek the victims eyes..like omg the blood like flowing like pipe boco,then he poke with knife and pull out the large and small intestine,eewwww...lastly he ripped out the heart..its so gore that i only watch it once.hahah...

then i tried asking ad to watch,but then dia taknak..haha..paksa nye paksa dia mati2 taknak watch..ok ah im pissed by that...so ya i respect her decision..but then later she told me she wanted to watch for my sake,cummon thats bullshit,wanna watch out of sympathy?not my style dude..ya..so yup..i guess i wanna continue on my so kol my revsion..

and ya i wana say this too,im a kind who forgive and forget not forgive and CANNOT forget,if cannot forget,then why forgive at the first place,asking for forgivenss means to forget everything and open a new leaf,sp ya dont say anything if udont mean it and think before u do sumthing or want to forgive sumone....so yeap..

enjoy..

ALL ABOUT SEX

ok im very tired,dunnoe what to type.

thanks god i have finsih my bloody 1000 word essay,what a relief,and im shock by my cousins,for the first time we chat dirty stuff..bloody hell dorang...yg one of them sampai semangat baca buku pasal kawin,and tell me bout stuf such as,kalau suami mintak main,si isteri tak bleh tolok no matter what..AH DGR TU KAUM WANITA DI SANA,JGN SEKALI KORANG TOLAK PERINTAH SUAMI...HAHAHHEEHEHUHU.....then kena sampai peak of the nikmat,if one of them belom puas selagi tu korang tak bleh stop,and nak bersetubuh bawa selimut,as for LELAKI kalau bleh jgn tengok P*** isteri,kalau tak bleh tahan,well u noe i noe la eh.u can finsih it all..

abis tu tak bleh henjut gila babi macam ngah tunggang kuda,and yla talk stuff about blowjobbing..olalala....there was a time where i TERbaca magazine,ustazah lagi kata,kalau isteri pregnant,then si suami gian,si isteri bleh guna kan ape saje untuk melepas kan nafsu si suami tak kira pakai tangan atau mulut janji nafsu suami hilang..oulalalala..ehem2..hehe..

abih kalau nak bersetubuh,kena baca doa,"WAAAMINTAAKMAINSAMAAALUU".ok just joking,i dunooe what the doa so ya..hehe..sorryy..hahah..ni penting siak,kalau tak,jadi anak perangai setan..hmm...so ya IMPORTANT dude..so many more ah dirty stuff been talk about with them..

then my cousin plak tanya pasal our love story,so ya kita ceritakan ah..hahaexchange info,yg my cousin plak ni 100% DEFENSIVE SIAK towards gf dia,yg gf dia baik la,pakai tudung la ni la tu la all the good stuff..susah nak dpat la yada....bila aku cakap sikit dia tka terima and saying im standing on my grounds..but then tak semua orang baik,tak semua tudung baik..but then dia mati2 defensive saying with full of ego arrogant,shes not that type i can ASSURE u..yada3..so ya,takank banyak cakap,just ket it hapen and see whats next.

i did told him not to trust anyone,trust tu memang ah but ade tahap,cannot fully..so ya and dia kata dia nak tunngu 8 tahun untuk get the girl,doa siang 10x a day without fail yada2,,kalau tak dapat pompan tu dia taknak kawin....main2 kau 8 yrs,i told him people chg,dia mati2 tak and follow his ego,well i hope he make it thru the 8 yrs,kalau sucess im happy for him and respect,if not ill be the first to lauf at him..i say people chg becos i have already learnt the lesson that people chg eg,he/she will wait NO MATTER HOW LONG IT TAKES for he/she to come back,no matter what happens he/she will wait and yada2...but then it took only a month to be brainwashed and twist the sentence by saying HOW LONG MUST he/she wait to be happy and yada stuff..so ya..

bottom line is,people do chg in just one month,ape lagi 8 years...hmm..so ya lets pray and see what the allah has planned for us..as in this world nothing is confirm and nothing stays the same,even the bad chg to worst,chg juga pe tu..get it?people will chg no matter what,its the matter of time,everything will be reveal,especially for the TRUTH..........

enjoy..

BBQ

whoa,yesterday was fun people,at last 5B reunion the moment i have been waiting for...so ya at around 3.30 i,kai and anwar when to ridwan's house to carry stuff..kita orang carry ayam marinate,ayam goreng,mee goreng,charqoal,trolley and everythingla eh..hahaso ya around 4.30 we reach the pit,thanks to ridwan's father he sent us there..kalau tak merana siak..thank god the rain stop..haha...ok

the best part,da sampai sana,arang semua ade,cuma fire starter aje takde..ni oit kepala metal mintak kena rodok siak ngan ni arang....the important stuff is from him but then he came late..da dtg lambat takpe,dia tak mengaku sala siak..buto la..kita orang nye peng pat sama..da la nyamok gigit sana sini..harban taik..then later aisyah came,then jasmine,zat kenneth,then baru la my sweetheart adillah came along with syaz and sha.then yg lain ah dtg kemudian..malas siak nk type haha..so ya we start the pit by placing the charqoal and yada2 the bbq i set..so ya we enjoy it very2 much...rindu siak with this class..so ya,bbq here and there there and here,eat chicken,hot dog yada3...air fruit punch,sorry guys no ice..muhaha..so ya as usaual for the boys smoke here smoke there.

.so ya the pit finish around 12 then while the rest when home,i adillah,kai,najib,firdaus,brandon, angel,shuyi and jasmine chill at macdonald tampines and play some stupid game..and we also played chop cili chop game a stupid game but funny..hahahah,,then we chill then we play tru or dare..ni pat gerek..many truth and many secret has been reveal..but too bad its only among us only..so ya sorry..we chill at around 4 everyone started to talk nonsense..then ya we call it a day...i sent ad home by giving a hug and a kiss from me to her..so ya..yeap2..a day to remember in my life..

Thats my dad with his fren enjoying during his zaman muda..hehe..cool juga bapak aku ni

thats him in red,gosh i miss him so much..haiz,but life is too short..

thats me with my father..haha...miss the days..

ok thats me zaman silam,rokr,ramli sarip rock

my 6th bdae party

thats me,gosh so the..NVM shall no say it..haha..funny la sia bila zaman kecik2,haha

ok this charming cute boy..chubby face..(tu dulu ah chubby now no more)

and ya again thats me now...grown up child..haha..

fewweet..

so ya firstly i miss my late dad...i just burst into tears when i flip back my photo album and get to see the person i lost when i was just a primay kid..gosh..ape yg dia tahu siak primary 3..haiz..dad i miss u so much..hope u are listening to me now and i just wish i could have u back,7 years spending my life with u is not enuf DAD...NOT FAIR TO MY SIBLINGS....and ya my mum,thats all i have in this world to live life with..cant imagine life without her..lose once is enuf..lose both will be miserable..so ya mum,i will take good care of u no matter what it takes as long as i noe that u are happy.. so ya for the people out there,take good care of yur parents,cus life will be sucks if one or both of them is gone forever..trust me on this FRENS...

I noe humans = regret only they have lose sumone they love..thats whats human nature is all about..damn..so ya..

Adillah picnic best sia.hehe..ok ok..ehem2..shussshh..haha...so ya i miss u sia..haha..nv, besok jjumpa lagik..wee...and happy 11th month...syg u banyak2..muakcs

so ya,its holiday guys..2 weeks..bleh bangon lambat..hehe..yeahaa..so ya,first week of holiday is pack with my activities.i shall list

1) friday till monday i cannot go out,my mum ask me to stay at home to jaga dia.


2) tuesday onwards,meet adillah,maybe go picinic..hehe..ouh yess.

3) go out with my nursing classmate to buy stuff for our class bbq.

4) go my nursing classmate bbq with adillah..see,i pay for her..and its on the 14 sumore..hmm..hint2

5) friday,solat jumaat then see how the day goes on with my frens..hmm yea..

6) the day and the moment that i have been waiting for,5B bbq...yeahaa.miss all of them...oulalaa...cya everyone..

hehe..thats for the first week,for the second part of my holiday,i dunnoe what maybe take hepetitis B jab..hmm ntah la...


i miss my girlfren ADILLAH..lets go picnic adillah..hehe..hmm..haha..

today my was realy like nabue cho chibye...AND AS FOR MY CLASS GROUP 2,i would like to say,u all are just a bunch of boring people...and as the day goes by,the sound of KRIK2 is getting louder and louder and louder..omg...boring siak korang..ape hal sia...haha..today was like shit day,fish day,banana day,but usually people call it tuesday...my da was suck sia...ape aku buat semua sala..ade tak kena la tu la ni la..kan sial nama dia..tapi takpe...haha...ok people ask me to cheer up..ok fine aku try..so ya...besok pojek..ape nak jadi jadi la...fuck over and done with...

ADILLAH i miss u so much....remember sunday?hehe

ok random pictures..haha

my face cramp becos tgh tahan ketawa..haha.people around lookk at us like what sa..haha.funny.

kai and anwar..this what we call trust among brothers..haha

ok thats us,the bujang legong

ok,yesterday was friday,i skip skool,so call "sakit" and malas sia nak go...only few hours of skool..so ya very lazy to go to skool...and that day also was prac 3 for my moto bike...as usaual i fail for the first time..haha..the figure 8 was like kaninabu cio chibye.....lancoq btol..haha...hard sia..u have to complte the course below 11 seconds...sial...the instructor show us with effortless..so easy..buut when i sit onthe bike..it was difficult...nvm...i shall not give up..haha...

ok adillah,i miss u so much ...siapa mulut senget?hmmm..i wnder...ad,u noe who rite mulut senget..khekhehekh....and thanks for inviting me for the party..